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Splashes and Breezes

Part 1: Splashes (Poems)

by Alan Harris

To Linda

Wife and Best Friend

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Alma Mater Revisited
Animal Tao
August Sunday
Cat Lying Down
The Cry of Everything
Death is Life Bursting into Bloom
Death through a Peephole
Free Now
Frozen Fantasy
How We Came to Know Truth
Howling at a Real Moon
Love Is
Moon and Mars Conjunct
Mother Greets Newborn
One Glance
Planting an Apple Tree
Rolling with the Thunder
The Sound of Dying
Suburban Reverie
Three Root Words
Tavern Talk
Tired Minds
Two Birds in a Tree
Two Haiku

Alma Mater Revisited

The campus seems all hollow
today as I walk in its leaves again.
The marching band warms up in the
distance for a football game of
whumpgrunters and whoopleaders--
but the booming band sounds vacant.
All the music is there--the
brass, the drums, the tearing
and merging of harmonies--
but I am gone, nowhere near it.
The now magicless bookstore I worked in
has shabby Shakespeares languishing
between glossy audio-visual texts and
sterile physical geology workbooks.

Is the college hollow, or am I?
I remember classes where
cocky professors taught
stimulating sensical stuff
which flew the way of
June fireflies after exams.
Hormone-smitten twist dancers
flexed and flirted their nervous bodies
toward flippant connubialities
while I tried to study my brain into a
tested heaven of alphas.
The fatuous sounds of
today's rah-rahs echo as before
among stately buildings that housed
the tenure-drones of worked-over lectures.
Now, whom are we all trying to fool?
College is, I confess, as dead in me
as a syllogism, but supportive America
of a Saturday puts down its newspaper,
pours out a Bud Light, and
remotely emotes from its easychair over
conference headcrunching
seen through colored electrons on glass.

Who died? Did I? Are the college sounds
I hear today on my old campus--the band,
the cheers, the dead leaves underfoot--
any hollower than 25 years ago? No, no,
I heard their emptiness in youth, but
this milieu quickened me then as liberation
from a safely parented childhood
and insurance against an empty future.
After a full life I would be most ungrateful
now to pronounce college dead,
but let us stick with hollow.

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Animal Tao

A cat is mostly yin;
of the Cosmos she is the twin.
Like the mysterious Cosmic Laws,
she keeps well-hidden her claws
until some urgent necessity.

A dog is thoroughly yang,
with his boisterous bark and his fang.
Ignoring the subtler laws
and concealing none of his flaws,
he pursues life and cats with avidity.

A dog is always searching,
but a cat is content with perching.
The dog loves to follow his nose,
while the cat simply sits there and--knows.
Activity ends in tranquillity.

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August Sunday

Pounding hammers sing
     along with church choir anthem--
          confusing rhythms.

Depth of azure sky
     recedes to far galaxies
          behind daylit moon.

A leaf waves gently
     in a breath from summer's lungs,
          then hangs green and still.

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Cat Lying Down

When my cat lies down,
it is with utmost

No circular trampling first
like a clumsy canine,
no great sigh
like a human
being on a couch.

My cat lies down slowly,
participating with
controlled abandon
in a dignified
gravitational event.

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The Cry of Everything

Where the crow twitters
and the bluebird cackles,
there is the cry of everything.

Bees moo and ducks roar;
horses croak and rocks snore.

The cry of everything, yes all of all,
fills creation and non-creation
with the delectable din
of a monstrous pin

Screen nothing out;
mute nothing.
All is here but for an eternal moment,
a timeless flicker of the sun.

And when the cry of everything dies out--
well, won't that be grand too?

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Death Is Life Bursting into Bloom

To a Reading by Alan Harris

When I die, I will not die.
I will be a foot coming out of a too-small shoe,
a bird flying free out of a cramping cage,
an astronaut taking off his space suit,
having safely returned home.

When you die, you will not die either.
You are not your body, as I'm not mine.
You will see a brighter rainbow
and hear heaven's ethereal music
which no stereo can capture.

When I die but not die,
I will leave a little part of me
inside your memory.
It will be your key to my door
that is always open in heaven.

When you die but not die,
I will have the key to your door too.
Better to have keys for open doors
than closed doors without keys,
as in this locked-up life on earth.

When I am gone but not gone,
think of me and I am there.
When you are gone but not gone,
I will send you flowers through the air.
Let us celebrate the magnificent safety of death.

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Death through a Peephole

How can I word it?

I am 45, on the
downhill side of life.
Lying on the couch,
eyes closed,
my stereo playing Bach's
St. Matthew Passion,
I see death
through an inner peephole--
a visionless glimpse.

There it is,
a threatless,
benevolent space,
neither outer nor inner,
where neither moon nor
Andromeda move.

I feel the grip of a subsonic
bass note in my chest,
a whole note from
the bottom of the cosmos.

Death? Is that you?
A beautiful black
emptiness full
of friendly steadiness?

Yes, comes no answer.

I look up at the ceiling
and smile at 46.

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Try to force a flower,
and what do you have?
A mutilated bud.

Try to be happy,
and very existence becomes

Try to live long
by running and jumping,
eating by the book,
sleeping wisely,

and die truly old
in a nursing home
beside a pot
of plastic flowers.

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Free Now

I get up in the morni
ng, and my life is totally, ra
dically free. What do I do? Do I m
ake the bed? Do I ta
ke a shower? Do I eat a meal ca
lled breakfast? Do I go to wor
k at an office?
Do I sell my house and move to a
nother state? Do I give my mon
ey to charity and beg? How
do I think if I am free? Do I thin
k of myself at all? Do I think of o
thers? Am I just a clear lens which sees, b
ehind which there is no thing, an
d in front of which is every thing? I a
m free, but how do I act? What do I
do? I am free from how, and from doin
g, but my heart still beats, I brea
the, I must eat, I must elimina
te and perspire. Do I feel overw
helmed with freedom and long for the old
cages? Do I become depress
ed because I can find nothing to do?
If I see the futility in every hum
an motion and emotion, how can I live?
Where is my base of operations? In
space? In nothingness? In someth
ing called God? In whatever love
is? Am I really totally, radically f
ree, or have I just enlarged my c
age? Can I find the boundaries of my p
rison if they are invisible to me? I feel
them holding me in. Am I free? Yes, I
am free. No more family is necessary.
No more society. No more
civilization. I can walk ou
t the door and never come back. I ca
n go anywhere on earth. I am com
pletely free. But to go anywhere is
to not go everywhere else. I leave
a trail. I remember. People remember
me. There are ties. Within memory ca
n I be free? Can I remember without encum
brance, without attachment, withou
t hope, without fear? Yes. I am free. I sit on
a rock. Where am I? Who am I? Why am I
here? Am I free? Yes, totally, radically f
ree. Do I like it? That is not the question. F
reedom is all there is, and I am it. Each thin
g matters as much as each other thing, an
d yet no thing matters. Matterin
g is a trap, but things are just th
ings. I am free to lie in the mud o
r to go to the office or to sit here on th
e rock. What am I to do? Free, as I am,
what is there in life? The cage has
been sprung open and destroyed,
and there is no going back to it. I b
reathe, and I walk, and I stumble, a
nd eat, and see. A man walk
s by and sees me sitting on t
he rock, and he says, "Hello. Nice mornin
g, isn't it?" I say, "Yes, it is." Am I
still free? What is another person, r
eally? Before, I could only assume, bu
t now I must investigate.
What, really, is another person?
I breathe deeply, and I get up and
walk toward nothing, away from nothi
ng, just walk. Now I know what I mus
t do, now that I am radically free. I m
ust find out what the other person is.
He is there. I see him. He is not an illu
sion. Is he free? If not,
can I free him? Am I free no
t to free him? What is relationship when th
ere is freedom? I will investigate until I die.
A bird lands on a fence post.

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Frozen Fantasy

My first breath outside
on a winter morning
speaks a frosty sentence
and drifts off.

When my hand sticks
to a cold pipe,
I have joined the winter club.

When the sneaky wind
finds a crack in my coat,
I feel the grip
of zero.

Winter is,
if anything,
a surprise in ice.

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Two Haiku

Our supper table,
     magnet of our emotions,
          lies covered with crumbs.

* * *

Gusting summer rain
     glitters into our backyard
          under shining sun.

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Howling at a Real Moon

What is illusion,
Is it the satisfied look on a rich
lady's face?
Is it a boy smelling the evening
breeze as he rubs his magic
lamp and has
Is it the mathematically
maternal thrill of writing a tight
algorithm for a computer?

What is reality,
sort of?
Is it the headache after too
much ice cream too
Is it the birds before a spring
sunrise singing their hearts
Is it the symphonic
climax hurled out
of a conductor's

If we knew what illusion is,
would it be found but a
If we knew what reality is,
how long before the knowing
were but a memory?

Give me a breath at a time
and keep your reality.
Show me a round
orange moonrise
and I will fully embrace illusion.

I look into your eyes
and I see the absolute
reality of illusion.
Then it is that I forget the
illusion of reality.

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How We Came to Know Truth

To a Guest Reading by Paul Meier

Our village mystic (who,
the way, is President
of the National
Mystical Association)
decided he had studied
He would, by
God, climb
the sacred mountain
out beyond the village
limits and find
out what
was what.
We villagers don't
understand him,
but we know he must be
Someone even says there's
a faint halo around
his head, visible
only to the more advanced
This is probably
true, for why would an advanced
soul lie
to anyone?
So Mike (our mystic) climbed
the sacred mountain
a week
ago when there
was a quadruple conjunction
of some planets I'd heard
of and some I hadn't
(I don't understand
these things, but I did
think the air
smelled different that
Mike meditated (you know, where
you sit
down and do holy
things to yourself)
and then climbed the
mountain just like he owned
the damn thing.
We all watched from the
He was at the top about
half an hour,
maybe receiving his
and then he came back
We all gathered around
him and asked him what
he saw, what he learned,
what he heard, how did it
Mike rolled
his eyes up and
began to speak in a
quiet but firm voice, saying:
"I have been to the mountain
I have had
an Experience.
I cannot possibly tell you
how it really was.
I must speak in veiled
terms for your own good.
I say unto you,
'Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
What's false is false,
And what's true is true.'"
As he spoke,
I thought I noticed a faint
shimmer of light
around his holy head.
It is humbling to be
able to live in the
same village with
one who knows,
and who knows
he knows,
and has a
halo according
to some reports.

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Love Is

To a Guest Reading by Paul Meier

Sunlight twinkles yellow
off the neighbor's tree leaves,
stirred by a sibilant breeze.
All is well.

The sky is empty, empty, empty, and azure.
Do not worry.

The rose window decal
on our east window glows
with what glass and plastic know of love--
crimson, aqua, yellow, and amethyst,
concentric in twelves.
It is all right.

Your eyes shine behind mine,
energizing my thoughts,
giving off a gentle voltage.
Fret not.

You are more than you are.
You are the prism,
the white light,
the rainbow,
and more.

Notice your depth sometime
as you awaken from sleep,
and rest assured
that depth never dies.

a smooth current of calmness,

It is too silly now to say
what love is,
or that I love you.
Words trouble the serenity.
Definitions becloud the sky.

Tremulant leaves
twinkle sunlight.
The sky is empty, pure.
The rose window
glows with color.
Your eyes,
your deep eyes--

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How so up we go
and so down,
we moodriders,
spirits abuilding
and acrumbling.
A day or peaceful two,
then zapperoo,
off we tumble from our
pinnacle of hail-fellow peace into a
tar barrel of angry gloom.

Pin me up on a bulletin board
and study me, Mr. Doctor.
Give me lithium or understanding
or electric temples to make
me cool.

Thank you.
Now I see. I see the gentle
love-waves shimmering
in the atmosphere.
I see WHAT IS--
the sharp outlines of the furniture,
the swaying trees.
Here we are in reality,
or what's left of it.

Peel me off the periphery of mortals,
would someone? Why cannot I have
the normal agonies of mankind?
Why do I ride on a little toy boat through
such choppy moodwaters?
Give me a reason, please.

No, don't.
It's all right.
I see so many
normal folks in such pain,
caught in business envelopes of stuffy fright
or pulsing with radioactive rap music
or yammering in their beer.
What right have I to ask that a corner
of the universe be lifted so I can peek
at God's underwear and understand
why I am why I am?

I do my work and I pay my bills and I
contribute to the coffers of
such democracy as we have.
Oh, I emote a bit unevenly,
yes, I do.
But then, Uranus doesn't
rotate the same as the other planets do,
and it still makes the charts.

Whatever the mood,
there is a place that is here
and a time that is now
and a cracklingly deep intelligence
smack in the middle of everydude,
be he into
pills or pajamas or private jets.

How so up we go
and so down,
with a smile,
with a frown,
slightly unpinned,
scarf in the wind.

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Moon and Mars Conjunct

Walking at night
to the corner mailbox,
breathing deeply of
cool September air,
I look up and see
Mars by the full moon,
quiet friends,
like a tiny garnet
by a round opal
set in the sky's
planetary ring.

A carful of teenage girls
zooms by,
emanating shrieks and
laughs and
careening between curbs
through our
planned community.

The red taillights
soon zigzag away
into velvet distance,
and silence prevails,
broken now by
this old mailbox accepting
my letters with a chuff
and a clanky groan.

I look skyward again.
Mars and the moon,
quiet friends still,
stare winkless from the surface
of the universe.

Has anything changed?
Yes, my letters are
in the mailbox;
yes, the car has painted
a picture in my ears;
yes, the moon is
closer to Mars now--
but nothing deep
has changed.
The night has merely
taken a breath.

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Mother Greets Newborn

I see you have been
traveling through the universe
without a map again.

Welcome to earth, my friend.
I breathe on you with my eyes
and I hear you with my breast.
You squall and you squirm,
but you did come to this place,
and I opened the door,
so let's learn to be together.

As your first guide
on this strange planet,
I will introduce you to your body
and mine and everything else.
Let us proceed together now
as companions.

Earth is not a bad place to live.
There is much room here for love.
There, there, there....
Drink of the earth and sleep.

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"A symphony of colored sky"

One Glance

From its western podium
the setting sun conducts
for half an hour
a symphony of colored sky:
loud oranges and penetrating purples
resolving into softer pinks and muted blues.

Under this musical sky,
noticing your smile and breeze-tossed hair,
I glance deep into the centuries
behind your clear eyes--
and I remember.

This moment was and is and will be.
It never was not, and never cannot be--
one precious moment of purest love,
breathless and deathless.

Inner spirit needs only one glance, no more--
no rush or embrace or kiss or promise.
One glance opens your soul to me,
and I know your soul and love your soul.

This musical sky is fleeting;
these bodies will grow old and cold;
but my memory of this one glance
will never fade, as must the sky.

Our symphonic sun's bright colors
have mellowed now to a somber gray
as we walk along
not knowing what to say.

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I saw a philosopher
driving to work
at the college
in his Pontiac
to pick up
his biweekly
and I said
to myself,
"What does
this really

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Planting an Apple Tree

Our green earth is turning brown
like a skinless apple
when wrapped in clear plastic.
We cough and spit our technology
into its atmosphere,
pumping it full of our pumpings,
heating it with our heatings.

We fail to hear earth wheeze
as we motor to the flea market
for our next bargain
or to the supermarket for 2% milk.
We dump our chemists' ideas
into the only air there is
and pump carbon
into our children's lungs.
Already we smell our urban halitosis
blowing back into our faces
and we make little jokes about it.

Will earthlife fade away
along with our generation?
Or will we let it breathe
the saving breath of trees?
It is too smoky to tell from here,
but I plant this apple tree
in case earth heals one day
and some new Newton needs
a lump on the head.

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Rolling with the Thunder

Why I was angry matters not,
but fury had blossomed in me,
and I was it--no turning away.

Fingers atremble,
voice ashake,
heart apump,
I challenged a present wrong
yielded up to me
from some chasm of an obscure past.
I stood resiliently firm,
arteries turgid with love and law.

It is over, and I did not lose.
No one lost--or won.
The conflict was as imperative
and brief
as a summer thunderstorm.

I sit now electric with leftover adrenaline,
images of the struggle
reverberating in my thoughts--
but already a silence in my blood begins
to bathe me with merciful forgetting.

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The Sound of Dying

If you have heard
a train go by,
you know the sound
of dying.

A buzz, a roar,
and no more.

Oh, maybe a little clacking
in the distance,
but nothing to
speak of.

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Suburban Reverie

Watering the flowers,
I happen to think of
all the famous authors
working on their newest

Mowing the yard,
I wonder how the
great mathematicians
can prove their theorems
even with computers.

Sitting in my front yard,
listening to the songs
of cardinals and wrens,
robins and blue jays,
I wonder at the amount of
practice an opera star
must submit to.

How about the columnists
and cartoonists and
astronauts and painters,
all being

Here I am,
sitting in my front yard,
in an aluminum lawn chair,
staring at my suburban home,
supporting and
supported by a nice family,

I'll water the flowers a little more.

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Three Root Words

When all the words are done,
and all the gestures and looks,
I love you.

When all the miles are traveled
and all the roadblocks passed,
I love you.

When all the arguments are over
and the smile comes after gloom,
I love you.

Love abides beneath all words.
Love knows no distance.
Love dissolves every difference.
I love you.

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Tavern Talk

To a Reading by Alan Harris

Did you ever look deeply
into the eye of a chicken?

No, you say,
they have
nothing between their eyes
but cartilage,
and you laugh at your little joke.

Did you ever look deeply
into the eye of a chicken?

Yes, you say, and
it came over and bought
me a drink,
and you laugh some

Did you
ever look
deeply into
the eye
of a chicken?

No, you say, have you?

Yes, I have.

What did you see? you ask.

I saw a light like a little
egg-shaped sun,
and inside it were countless
smaller eggs.
It was like touching my eyeball
to a live wire,
and it lasted for only a split second,
but I saw infinity in the eye of a chicken.

Yeah, I saw that once in a waitress's eye,
you say with a snicker.

Same infinity I saw,
only I didn't have to leave a tip.

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Tired Minds

Our minds,
like tires,
tread round and round,
going places,
coming back,
going flat,
getting pumped,
wearing down,
and finally

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Two Birds in a Tree

A large bird alights
on a small branch
at the top of a poplar tree.

He bounces and wavers in the breeze,
keeping his balance.

Such is human life.

Another bird alights
on a small branch
very near the first one.

Both bounce and waver in the breeze,
but in different rhythms.

Such is married life.

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